I asked, “Why do you feel lonely?”
He didn’t quite have the words, but his eyes were full of something unspoken.
That night, I called my sister and asked some things I probably should’ve asked long ago.
But the moment I keep thinking about? It came the next morning.
Reuben had written something on a scrap of wood and nailed it above the shed door:
“THIS IS WHERE I MATTER.”
It wasn’t flashy or dramatic—just honest. Quietly powerful. Like he had finally found a space where he felt seen.
After breakfast, we sat on the back steps with mugs of hot cocoa, and I asked, “What’s going on at home?”
He hesitated, then said, “Mom’s always tired. And when she’s not tired, she’s upset. I know I mess up sometimes, but even when I don’t, it feels like I’m just… extra.”
Extra.
That word stayed with me.
I don’t have kids of my own, but I know what it’s like to grow up trying not to take up too much space. Maybe that’s why I’d been so focused on teaching him lessons—hard work, structure—without realizing what he really needed was to feel heard.
The next few days, things changed.
We still did chores, but I let him take the lead. He helped fix the chicken ramp. Named all the goats. Built a crooked little sign for Marshmallow’s pen: “OFFICIAL GOAT HQ.” He beamed with pride.
He also asked thoughtful questions. “Why do goats climb everything?” “Why do chickens sleep with one eye open?” And one that caught me off guard: “Why do you live out here alone?”
I answered honestly. Told him I liked the quiet, but sometimes it got lonely. That maybe peace and loneliness weren’t always the same thing.
On the day his mom came to pick him up, I found him sitting in the old truck bed, petting Marshmallow and watching the sun rise over the pasture.
“I don’t want to go back,” he said softly.
I told him he didn’t have to decide anything big right away—but that he should always remember this: “You’re not extra. You’re essential. To me, to your mom, to this farm—even to Marshmallow. You matter.”
When my sister arrived, she looked tired. But when she saw Reuben—really saw him—hugging that goat like it was a best friend, something in her softened.
I pulled her aside and said, “You’ve got a great kid. He just needs someone to notice.”
She nodded, tears in her eyes. “I didn’t realize how distant I’d become.”
So we made a plan: Reuben would visit once a month. More if he wanted. I gave him a toolbox and made him the “junior farmhand,” complete with a homemade badge.
That little sign he made? Still hanging in the shed. Every morning, I walk past it:
“THIS IS WHERE I MATTER.”
It reminds me—people don’t always need fixing. Sometimes, they just need to be seen.
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